So if last week I was a bit annoyed by the fact I’m not signed up for university yet, this week I’m just depressed trying not to cry by reading lots of books that can make me forget that I’m obviously gonna lose this fucking cycle and not because I failed classses, no. Thanks a lot, dad! For lying to my face and avoid having an actual conversation with me. Anyways, leaving that aside I’d like to tell you I managed to read 9 books, I think, I watched the ‘Heathers The Musical’ episode of Riverdale which was not good at all except for the performance of ‘Seventeen’, and I watched Drag Race live for the first time without forgetting about the time it would air. So I’m ok when it comes to my sanity, however I’ve read abot some serious, a bit creepy, mysteries, I decided to call this my ‘Creepy Sherlock Fase’ which is seriously helping me get through my issues.
The first book I read was ‘Be Not Afraid’ by Cecilia Galante.
Marin has not being herself ever since her mother commited suicide, she was supposed to take care of her depressed mother an afternoon but chose to stay with a friend, when she returned she knew it was all her fault. Now in another town, her father barely talks to her and she keeps seeing things that should not be there with no medical explanation other than insanity. She has not been the same since the most popular girl invited her over, since she was pranked in the most cruel and inhumane of ways, the things that were done to her that day will remain in her memory. Now that same girl seems to be changing, becoming something else, something that could have been unleashed in her scarring prank, something out of their control.
IT WAS NOT THE GREATEST READ, BUT I DON’T REGRET IT.
I honestly think it fulfilled its purpose, it wasn’t boring and the main character was really likeable. The whole exorcism arch was a bit too much like all exorcism/supernatural movies or tv shows, and the romance was like something pulled out of Wattpad but overall I enjoyed the plotline. I guess it managed to keep my attention, which is one the greatest accomplishments a book of this caliber can achieve; I guess it had what it takes to entertain an avid reader of the supernatural. 👻👹🤷
Next I read ‘People Like Us’ by Dana Mele.
Kay keeps running nonstop. She ran to denial when her BFF died, she ran to a preppy boarding school when her brother died, she ran to popularity when she was nothing, and now she’ll have to run for the truth after finding a girl’s body in the lake right when she and her friends were about to take a bath. Somehow her friends knew this girl, somehow Kay knew this girl, somehow all her cruel ways are exposed and she becomes a suspect. Things couldn’t get worst after she finds a threatening message from the dead girl on her dashboard, one that now forces her to lose all she worked so hard to gain and to go back to the first place she startedrunning from.
DAMN, GIRL! I’M STILL NOT OVER THAT ENDING.
I ventured thinking oh this is definitely going to be like PLL and the Private series, I’m on it, but then the characters were genuinely mean and like a dull persona, with so many blackbones on display, which got me more into it cuz it was intriguing together with the fact our main character is I think bisexual and in dull/wicked/depressive mode on. Then there was the whole “who killed the little vixen?” thing and I just knew it had to be Brie, I mean I just watched the whole 4-episode Ted Bundy Netflix show and charismatic little bitches are on my list so she was my first and only suspect till I started doubting others (mostly the fucking cheating Ex), but she was always first since I just didn’t like how she broke badass Kay’s heart over and over with no remorse whatsoever. But then it all fell on the theatre goth chic, Nola, she was the typical first option being the stereotypical dark weird girl who knows about technology and hacking things, besides she had an obsession with Kay. Figuring out her motives was indeed a shock and all her twisted background and her deal with Bianca, she’s your typical sociopath going psychopath in the blink of an eye. Whereas, the whole ending plot twist had me shook, I was not expecting Kay to be that involved in her brother’s murder nor for it be so repulsive, but I can definitely see that incident shaping her, more exactly ever since Megan’s suicide I think she felt responsible and that ultimately lead her to a troublesome encounter with suicide just around the corner, now you just add up some bullying and helplessness feeling, but let’s not forget her parents reckless neglect then you get the perfect recipe for your typical depression driven teenage suicide. 😧
Anyways, the plot was great and once you read that last line you realize why she was ao dull and tired all the time, perhaps she could have had a cute little chance with Greg or fucking Brie (I still don’t like the bitch), but now we’ll never know. 😢 However, I’ve made my own AU for them as a pairing in my mind where she just forgets her issues and seeks his help and they fall for each other and he accepts her shit, and they live happily ever after. 😳 Well, it was creative with the whole poems in the recipes on that Revenge website and the passing was so on point. It’s a definite must read, and it should have its own Netflix 8-episode 1-season series 🤓.
Third book I read ‘Liars, Inc.’ by Paula Stokes.
Max has had a shitty life since his father died but things got better when he was adopted, things got better when he became friends with the most popular new boy Preston, and things got even better when he started dating Parvati. His little crew made him feel safe and gave him the oportunity of a lifetime when Liars Inc came to be a reality, a network of lies for money that only benefits Max. Nothing could go wrong, right? But what happens when a fake alibi leads him to become the number one suspect of a dissapearance, or a kidnap, or a possible murder?
IT WAS A LITTLE LESS THAN I EXPECTED, BUT STILL GOOD READING MATERIAL.
I have this thirst for mystery novels oriented to youngsters lately, and this had such hype that people compare it and even said it was better than the previous book I read this week, so I said ok why not. The plot compelled me and the fact the cover I got said it was like the next ‘Gone Girl’s or something made it even more appealing. To the point there were moments I was doubting Parvati like she was gonna come up with that ‘Cool girl’ twisted yet memorable monologue, however things got even more boring from my suspicions until they mentioned this thing about Preston’s dad being involved, that got my attention and though the theory was pretty ridiculous and too rushed to be true, it got me. Then I was thinking omfg what if all this time Max was Preston’s brother who somehow lost his memory or something, idk, however that one was killed off when she found Social Services’ Anna and i had to come up with other theories, but still until they were trapped in that cabin I genuinely beloved Parvati was working with “Preston” this whole time. Anyways, the epilogue was a bit too happy for my taste in mystery novels, but whatever, the passing was ok and the twists and turns could be better or a little more polished for all I know. But if there’s something I must give to Paula Stokes is that she can write some memorable main characters that one just wants to know, no matter how imperfect they are, one can just feel them making us tremble with desire or fear. 😉😎
Then I read ‘Genuine Fraud’ by E. Lockhart.
Jule is broke. Jule is a college dropout. Jule was a loser in her preppy boarding school. Jule was best friends with the most popular girl. Jule loved Paolo. Jule lost her parents at a young age. Jule became a talented hero trained by her ‘aunt’. Jule lied. Now she’s being chased in Mexico, she just feels that perhaps she will eventually have to pay for her sins, for her choices but she won’t go without a fight. After all, isn’t that what this truly is? The story of a hero?
IT’S A MOSTLY CONFUSING YET NONSTOP RIDE.
I must admit I was looking the next Liars Inc. or at least some We Were Liars hyping twists, some mystery that kept me on the edge of insanity or something. I was disappointed that while reading the first chapters I was utterly confused and I understood nothing of it, however I kept reading no matter how annoying this whole backwards chapters were, all until we realise this girl Jule is posing as her suicidal friend Imogen to some friend, then there was the fact she had a connection to this girl but murder was out of the question since they were bffs, right?! 😅 Well, the book told me to think again and keep reading cuz bang she just killed an annoying brat with a cat statue, and then one just knows what this whole suicide was all about but somehow you still want to read more of what happened before Puerto Rico, and you realize you want to get why and who was this person all along. Then there it is, the entire journey of twisted emotions Jule went through to get in and out of Imogen, to get to be herself in the most psychopath way possible. 😲😲😵
Wow, this was cool however I should have known what to expect when it comes to slow as f passing with E. Lockhart, but whatever I was entertained and I wish Paolo the best of luck and, also some of it to Jule or some justice at least. 🙄
Fifth book was ‘There’s Someone Inside Your House’ by contemporary romace author, Stephanie Perkins.
Makani Young did something bad back in Hawaii, but she won’t tell. Makani did something she thought was good in Nebraska, but she won’t act on it any longer. She could be easily framed for the recent bloody murders in her new small town, but this time she will tell and act because only this time: it wasn’t her. But that could be the last of her concerns when she discovers she’s not to be frame but just another helpless victim.
THE MOMENT I READ STEPHANIE PERKINS’ NOVEL, I NEEDED IT.
And also the moment I read Stephanie Perkins I knew that no matter how gory it would be or how many psycho murders there were, we would get some cutesy little contemporary romances, so yeah; it was really good but not the best in its genre since it had a happy closure, there we’re sad traumatic deaths but still it was like the preteen version of Scream, however I actually enjoyed this kind of no back story murderer, here we got a true psycho killer with no particular sad background reason why he actually did all this madness but insanity in its purest shape. Then when it came to our valiant protagonist, we got a girl with a dark past and disgusting parents that one just wants to shelter cuz she’s being fucked up really bad by people she trusted the most and by the hypocrisy/cruelty of many around her. Our darling girl deserves the family she know has with grandma Young and Ollie and her remaining friends(?), she’s definitely traumatized, even more than ever but I’m pretty sure Stephanie Perkins made sure she can move on from this awful situation, a girl just knows. 😢😳
After that I read ‘The Cheerleaders’ by Kara Thomas.
A few years ago, cheerleading was allowed. A few years ago, two cheerleaders died in a car accident. A few years ago, two other cheerleaders were murdered in cold blood. A few years ago, another cheerleader commited suicide: Monica’s older perfect sister. Her family was never the same, she was never the same no matter how much she acts like she doesn’t care. But now few years ago have passed, and new clues involvin the cheerleaders’ tragic passing are handed to her, Monica knows those were not simple tragedies, but have to be something more.
I’M GIVING IT ONLY FOUR STARS CUZ I WNTED A DIFFERENT KILLER. IT WAS GOOD ACTUALLY, I ENJOYED IT.
Nowadays, it quite rare for me to be immediately into a book the moment I start reading its first pages but damn this definitely did it for me. It was so hard for me to engage in a mystery High School reading since some of them are conducted by drama queens but here we have a conflicted girl dealing with depression and a family who doesn’t help her at all with a mere hug or understanding chat, Monica is one of those characters so complex you took a long time to get and to truly like, perhaps not as a cutie you want to protect but as a bad as a ballsy brave girl with fuel in her veins, a girl who’s far from perfect but a character you learnt not to judge and just go along hand in hand, she was written so beautifuly, just so you know. FYI, I had read some of its topics were abortion and sexual assault, so in my mind there was an ending involving the PD and some awful rape, and then there was another ending involving Ginny being assaulted and the cheerleaders knew it so they were killed by her father so yeah, I was so wrong😲😲. I’m right here thinking that this showed us that not every death has a back story and a bad guy, sometimes people just can’t deal with the pain of being alive, death turns to death and there’s nothing we can’t do to change it. 😢
Seventh book I read was ‘Lies You Never Told Me’ by Jennifer Donaldson.
Elyse is sixteen and she already lives like an adult, she pays rent, she feeds her drug addict mother, she works hards long hours to keep them both alive, studies hard to be ok in school and somehow managed to get casted as the lead in the new ‘Romeo and Juliette’ performance. Gabe is seventeen and he has everything he could want: he has a hot rich crazy girlfriend, he has a loving supportive family, he has a remarkable group of no nonsense friends. But Elyse and Gabe have never met, however they share something in common that could lead their paths to cross: they’re both in love with people they shouldn’t.
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MANY TEARS I SHED.
Damn, that’s what I call a book and not only because I found out the whole mystery behind this two teenagers who didn’t know each other way before, I mean I hadn’t read the synopsis correctly and I was ike this girl is this other girl so yeah, but then they didn’t have the same name so they weren’t? but I changed my mind when she saw Cat interacting with her ‘father’, I appreciate that twist cuz it made sense and it was so heartbreakingly real that I cried over our girl’s unfortunate prison of a life situation, it was so unfair and tragic. 😭😭😭 But also because I had this idea for a manuscript that had kinda the same twist but in a more graphic shocking yet scarring way. Anyways, this book was written correctly respecting the naively of adolescence and how when you grow without love that innocence is just shattered until you’re groomed by the devil, it had so much pain and undeniable truth, besides I kinda wanted more of the psychology of Sasha, so twisted that one would think is too unreal to be truth but many times it is. 😰
The following book I read was ‘The Darkest Corners’ by the talented Kara Thomas.
Tessa and Callie were best friends, no matter how different they were until a tragic night when Callie’s cousin dissapeared when she was babysitting them. People looked for her but found her dead and these young girls helped get her murderer into prison without mercy for the deaths of others like that cousin. They lost contact and faced death in their own way, but now they’re reunited knowing they lied and that the Monster who killed all those girls years ago might still be alive ready to kill again.
SOMEHOW I’M ALWAYS SURPRISED WITH THESE BOOKS.
Now I cannot longer call me a mystery know it all, this gracious author has made a fool out of me intriguing me with her twists, misleads and her thing with the murderers being kinda close with the victims so yeah, but damn I was not expecting to be that surprised. I mean my only theory was that the murderer was Callie’s dad Rick, I mean he had this porn thing before getting into poker, he could have been Lori’s secret father as Joslin’s and perhaps even Tessa’s, I mean I had already conjured this little story of him being the twisted killer and then he wasn’t and I wasn’t that amused with the real Monster Killer but then we got the twist with Anette and the ultimate twist coming from Tessa’s true origin which made Anette into one of the most demented villains I’ve ever read about, it all came from a sense of hatred and desperately angst to be loved and having this twisted idea of a happy family when she’s just nuts. 😲 Anyways, the book was good and somehow I always feel the author’s main protagonist is always numb inside. idk.
Book number nine I read was ‘Dear Killer’ by Katherine Ewell.
Kit was never meant to have an ideal childhood filled with love and friends. She was conceived to be a killer just like her mommie dearest, she was given no time nor love by her rich busy father, she was trained like a moral nihilist to continue the legacy her mom left. Now as a teenager, she has become a legend like ‘Jack the Ripper’, as the Perfect Killer leaving no trace more than a letter from those that wanted her victims dead. But when she choses to kill the monster instead of the prey, all she’s done, all her mother put in her head could be gone for good.
THIS IS TRULY THE PATH OF AN ADOLESCENT MURDERER, WITH ITS OWN EMOTIONAL RIDE.
I felt ultimately, that it was like a coming of age for Kit, since we first have this cold blooded girl that just kills because her mom raised her for that, then we have the guilt she never thought she would feel over her actions, “perhaps she ain’t an assassin but a vigilante”, the urges and conflict within her first crush being a truly worthy person that goes beyond attractiveness, then her mother brainwashing her again into stop her natural teenage evolving process by driving her insane, then she seeing the monster she has become and accepting her fate before completely loosing herself for another heartless kill. I understand why many will never get this book, the non-stop numbness of the main character is pretty unreliable, as with the unbelievable tactics Kit has to uncover her tracks, but I think that if you actually pay attention to her backstory one can just get the emotional rollercoaster she’s opening herself to and how her parents lack of love crashes her evolution once again, like they did when she was an innocent child right when they shaped her into this. 😢
Btw, I always thought this was gonna be like a hardcore JD and Veronica from Heathers little romance. A girl can dream, right?.🤔😓
Lastly I read ‘The Fever’ by Megan Abbott.
Deenie Nash had sex with a boy she didn’t care. Her friend Lise had her first orgasm with a boy she cared. Her other friend Gabby left her friends to be with a bad girl. And they all three went somewhere they weren’t allowed to deep inside their small town. They’re just teenagers trying to overcome her disasters, when Lise becomes sick and havoc wreaks with a disease that could be contagious, that could be deadly, that could be just a mistake.
I don’t know if many people get the idea in their heads that these are teenagers, and no matter how much we want all girls to be friends you know, all girl power, sometimes we just hate each other. Specially, when we are teenagers, perhaps not to the point of poisoning someone but our emotions whether wicked or friendly are strong, hormones and everything, so whatever we go through no matter how simple and ridiculous it looks from above the adult perspective, it feels like the end of the world for a teenager: like our own CW show from the early 2000’s. Leaving that statement aside, i take these reads quite seriously so I don’t go around trying to mock the content I’m given, therefore I genuinely explain that I felt it treated a serious issue like chaos over a small incident, how the belief we’re dealing with an epidemic can lead us to become part of it, how our brain reacts to destruction and how it actually feels like the end of the world when there are no clean answers. How a crush with the right amount of help from our peers, can make us betray our Co sense and do stuff that we only see in stalkers, we take it as a joke until nobody laughs but ourselves. It’s not about Mary Magdalenes vs Holy Marys, but about the issues we’re dealing with, within the small details i could rescue like Eli’s obsession with young small girls, and a bit with his sister😩, then the hidden violence behind Tom😕 responding to the slow burning lack of interest his ex wife shows for her divorced family🙃, and perhaps how non of us are truly naive in our own way, how our little mistakes can turn up being awful whether it’s a reality or only in our heads. 🤔
Btw, I love how Megan writes, so soothing.