Music Killed the Lazy Author #3

Hi, y’all.

I’m at my grandpa’s house, with a flu, trying to type this entry from my cousin’s laptop and it ain’t easy trying to remember what I struggled writing this couple of weeks. Anywyas, this weeks I used my own fears for these characters, and some of my strenghs to start Pov moments.

I have a fear of change, if I’m not in charge and I have tried to forget about the change that’s coming together with loneliness as a topping, I knew I can easily crumble and go back to that dark dark place I call my depression mode where I cry non-stop until I shed tears without no explanation, not even books can calm me, I mean when I tried venturing to new friendly books I just couldn’t. So now I’m about to have to make new friends or at least study buddies since I’ll be taking classes with people from cycles bellow and I won’t see my old classmates/friends ever again for those normal days at shailene-woodley-bored-gif-1428695942University and I’m already missing them besides who the hell knows if these new kids will accept me. SOOOOO, I used that awful feeling to humanize a character, her name is Samantha Webster, she’s the longtime best friend of Liselotte, she is still in LS dealing with a lost of identity and her urges towards Hendrick (Liselotte’s young stepbrother), as well as some deep deep secrets she’s not willing to even acknowledge in her mind. Sam could be translated into a caring girl, she’s allegedly confident and model-like gorgeous but not entirely cold as Lottie, she’s the school’s hippie, not hipster, but hippie since she’s a budhist and a vegan. She has more layers like the fact she feels she’s nothing without Lottie, she has confidence in her body even though her mother always tries to make her feel less, but her trust in making friends and not going through depression has started to crumble. She knows that if she gives those feelings much thought, she’ll go down the rabbit hole until she’ll need her antidepresives to survive. She’ll be one of THOSE girls who cannot live without them pills and she refuses to be it, so what helps her get over all that sadness and panic attacks: her thing with ‘Hennie’. She just gives in to that passion and lust, aware he has feelings for her and that she’ll neve reciprocate them in the way he wants. She doesn’t want to attach herself to anyone again, she want love to just happen but not with him, they are just not compatible that way. They are fine with sex but she knows he wants more, and feels guilty but that’s not that strong, not as her fear of depression. I used the song ‘Wanna be Missed’ by Hayley Kiyoko to inspire me about her issues.

In other news, I used my current knowledge of Isabella of Castille to give Lottie some brains while studying with Crystal, this might look like useless but this little piece of her gwyzwill drive this scene, as well as give her another layer. Lottie is not just outspoken but she LOVES history even though as me we’re not that fond of dates. I mean I had to look for a fucking timeline of the Queen’s life to get this right. Anyways, this small piece of my mind will drive the scene towards a discovery that’ll probably make things more awkward between her and Sam. It will also give us our first glimpse of Crystal as a tutor which will come into play later in the story.

Well, that’s it, I couldn’t write more since I had the flu as I have it now. It’s messy and I seriously do not wish it upon other readers or writers, it is the fucking worst! Next week, I’ll try putting some more stuff related to them family portrait related issues, and I’ll have to listen to Dollhouse quite a lot.

At The Movies… VC Andrew’s Heaven

Good morning, whoever is reading this.

So, last night was the first Saturday of other four to present the movie event of Lifetime Casteel Saga adaptations, it started with heaven and I wanted to share my views on what I thought about the contrast between the book that I just finished and the movie that I just finished too, so I’m fresh on little details. Anyways, here it is: my review.

Where do I start? Overall, I could see the connection between them movie and book, there were the country mountain side that everyone seemed to loath, there was the drunken father, there was slutty yet comic relief Fanny, there definetely was Sarah leaving unexpectedly, and daddy just giving his children away besides Heaven having to leave with Kitty and Cal. So there was all that, but I’d like to mention some things I kept thinking last night that I just couldn’t pass, like where the fuck was Miss Deale? The only almost perfect human being in that godforsaken small town, instead we got Kitty’s mom who also is a shitty teacher not quoting Shakespeare right and being just a bitch to poor Heaven. Also, Tom’s failing classes?! He was a fucking smart kid just like Heaven. Not happy. I wishe the whole selling their kids would have been explained, how Luke told them to dress nicely everytime he was gonna sell them, it lacked that fear instigating feeling. Some production issues with the doll having Heaven’s same hair color, since now we know that Leigh will have dark hair, it will give the audience some issues recognizing who this kid is. BTW, the Casteel kids seemed to have lots of clothes, some shitty ones but Fanny got style. 😀 In other news, Kitty’s clay animals are nowhere to be found as the pink and white of the house. Also, there was never flirtatious moments between Cal and Heaven, their thing just fucking happened out of loneliness and confused feelings, they do not share a careless longing passion and where the hell was the guilt? I don’t like this Cal, he’s to clingy and abusive.


Well, let’s see what I liked: Logan and Heaven were upgraded to this century and there was no mention of her being pure or innocent, progress! Then, I laughed my ass off with Fanny and I also yearned for her, she was nice and dumb but she didn’t deserve what happened to her. Fuck the reverend! Heaven making sense about why not telling others that they are utterly alone, social services would split them up! And Kitty’s rages mixed with agression were everything the book described, so spot on. In general, I enjoyed the movie adaptation though I laughed my ass off everytime Logan’s mom popped out of nowhere to tell Heaven some trash, seriously.